Where in world is Jesus, San Diego?

What do I like in people and what do people look for in me?

Well, if a person is a person you want to be around, someone who inspires you and has a peace that you crave, odds are that; that person has been with Jesus. When we celebrate people we love, sometimes we forget the character that we are celebrating. If I want to be a great person, then I want to be more like Jesus, and when I am that person, odds are I won't be able to forget why.

My Robot by Shel Silverstein

I told my robot to my biddin’
He yawned and said, “You must be kiddin’.”
I told my robot to cook me a stew.
He said, “I got better things to do.”
I told my robot to sweep my shack.
He said. “You want me to strain my back?”
I told my robot to answer the phone.
He said, ‘ I must make some calls of my own.”
I told my robot to brew me some tea.
He said, “Why don’t you make tea for me?”
I told my robot to boil me an egg.
He said, “First– – lemme hear you beg.”
I told my robot, “There’s a song you can play me.”
He said, “How much are you gonna pay me?”
So I sold that robot, ‘cause I never knew
Exactly who belonged to who.

(I feel like that robot most of the time)

pretending to care..

I had a thought in my head... I imagined myself surrounded by my friends, and one by one they were falling down dead. Instead of dealing with their life threatening situations I would hang out with them, party, and do nice things with them... but not address their dying.
If I really cared about my friends then I wouldn't care if telling them about Jesus made them mad, or resentful. If I REALLY loved them, then none of those fears at all would even hold any weight. If I REALLY cared about them then I would tell them straight to their face, probably as quickly as possible. If I REALLY loved then I wouldn't just watch them die and pretend that I did all that I could to stop it.

There is this girl that I have really wanted to see belive in Jesus and give Him her life. She's had a really rough life and a lot of terrible things have been done to her. My heart aches sooo bad for this girl, seeing her draws the compassion out of me like sludge from deep down. In my prayers for her I've been really desperate and bitter, almost like, if I didn't care then, no one would and God would do nothing. But today I realized that I forgot that God has more compassion for her than I do. It's Him that sent me to her in the first place. So it's not about how much I care, but realizing how much He cares and making that my motivation.

killing me softly

Ohh yeah I forgot that when God says, "no" about something, it is usually because He sees that it will end up hurting me in the end. Okay... you win. Kill me with kindness why don't ya.

Consider it not strange the firery trial which will test you

I once heard someone say that in pottery you can test to see if the pot is done by flicking it with your finger. If it makes a "thuud" sound, you know it needs more time but if when you flick it, it makes a resounding singing sound, it is done.
Am I done? In my current trial am I singing and praising? Or am I a thud?
Ahhh... the thought of worshiping during the fire sounds peaceful.

A devotional that is too radical and fitting to not be put on here.

" He took the twelve aside . . . —Luke 18:31

Oh, the bravery of God in trusting us! Do you say, "But He has been unwise to choose me, because there is nothing good in me and I have no value"? That is exactly why He chose you. As long as you think that you are of value to Him He cannot choose you, because you have purposes of your own to serve. But if you will allow Him to take you to the end of your own self-sufficiency, then He can choose you to go with Him "to Jerusalem" ( Luke 18:31 ). And that will mean the fulfillment of purposes which He does not discuss with you.

We tend to say that because a person has natural ability, he will make a good Christian. It is not a matter of our equipment, but a matter of our poverty; not of what we bring with us, but of what God puts into us; not a matter of natural virtues, of strength of character, of knowledge, or of experience— all of that is of no avail in this concern. The only thing of value is being taken into the compelling purpose of God and being made His friends (see 1 Corinthians 1:26-31 ). God’s friendship is with people who know their poverty. He can accomplish nothing with the person who thinks that he is of use to God. As Christians we are not here for our own purpose at all— we are here for the purpose of God, and the two are not the same. We do not know what God’s compelling purpose is, but whatever happens, we must maintain our relationship with Him. We must never allow anything to damage our relationship with God, but if something does damage it, we must take the time to make it right again. " ...

-My Utmost for His Highest Devotional (excerpt)

1 Corinthians 1:26-29

"For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. ²⁷ But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty; ²⁸ and the base things of the world and the things which are despised God has chosen, and the things which are not, to bring to nothing the things that are, ²⁹ that no flesh should glory in His presence."